She is You....

She moves with such grace and reverence

With eyes ablaze no one shall conquer

Such an exuberant spirit as hers...

Arms outstretched, including all

She loves fearlessly, shunning naught

And the fierceness of her love ignites

That love at the depths of the soul.

Don't bother to try a surface love

For she will slice you down

With the way she sees All

Holding a mirror to insecurities

Til tears will gently fall....

No shame...open up.... tell her-

Whisper your love. Be exposed

And the gently surrendered whispers

They echo from deep within 

Only to discover she is you-

And you knew it all along.....

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Nowhere to Hide

And here it is, the fear slowly returning,

Pieces left behind now burning....

Deep in my spine.....

.

And here it is, Memories returning,

Glimpses are concerning...

stirring in my mind......

.

My heart now swirls to this.....

My energy returns to this......

There is no chance to resist.... 

There is nowhere to hide.....

.

Vulnerable, I melt

Exchanges are felt

A deep friendship is built

In a love that isn't defined....

.

My heart now swirls to this....

My energy returns to this.....

There is no chance to resist....

There is nowhere to hide....

.

Grateful for this lesson

Intimacy has arisen

Taken forth from this season

In this Autumn so divine.....

.

My heart now swirls to this......

My energy returns to this....

There is no chance to resist.....

There is nowhere to hide....
There is just nowhere to hide.....

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Back into the Mind, Into the Body

Back to the touch I swirl and fall,

Swirl and fall onto my knees

Where lust lurks like a fog

So that I can no longer see....

No longer seeing or feeling

Trapped in the body and mind

Feeling full unable to give

Anymore of myself to rise...

Frustration turns into sexual energy

As I take my lover in my arms

Nothing more than physical passion

As I fall in this tangled destruction

Tense body, rigid muscles

As I firmly take hold

Dominating and disconnected

No love is made at all....

Down into this world of pain I retreat

Where open wounds bleed

Avoiding the self again and again is to live in this torture.....

Until my mind is once again freed.

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Purging

I can see tears when by chance we meet

You're on the verge of crying

I can feel the desperation clinging

it makes me just feel like crying...

Fear of letting go of your daughter dying

Is something so foreign to me.....

Grief is so thick, I can't seem to see

My walls are steadying me

 Polite conversation eludes me

And it moves me more than words

to see you suffer...

And it moves me more than words

that I make it worse...

Why do you do this to yourself?

I'd understand if you shunned me

The pain of missing your child

Now that I have grown-

the way your daughter

never will.....

And it rocks me to feel your grief

to see your eyes well with tears

I can feel this desperation clinging to me more

so much so that I cannot breathe.....

Please don't talk to me, please let me go

I can't handle you staring so...

Desperation clings to me of a life lost long ago

It won't bring her back to speak with me

I wish I could to stop your pain.

Please, set yourself free.....

For this desperation of clinging to me

is causing deep anxiety.

Walls are built to prevent friendships

Invisible I hide.

I can't feel this way again

desperately you cling to every passing moment-

the time I spent with your daughter sends echoes

of laughter through the air

expecting her to be there

even after all these years.....

Let it go, dear Mother, let it go

I release myself from your invisible grasp

and move away from your clinging....

Help yourself, you will not forget her

Stop blaming yourself for her death.

If you could have prevented it

You would have exchanged your life instead.

I know this...........

For years I felt guilty for living

this beautiful life.

But now I know its about letting go

So now I've moved on with my life.

I still remember her brightest smile and her

devilish loud laugh

But I owe it to life itself to live it

As even you as her Mother does.

Deeper Than Words

Swirling passion collides in this fury of fire

Rhythm moves and bends and flows

Energy vibrates within the body and 

Radiates its invisible waves across

Where the music keeps playing

Where inhibitions are discarded 

Where energies mingle- 

Where there are no thoughts, 

No judgments, no insecurities,

No expectations....

And speaking mere words seems so empty,

a ridiculous way to communicate,

For more is occurring on different levels

on the energy that we radiate

Where songs of devotion echo into the night,

Resonating into the sky, 

Sharing love with beautiful souls

I have never felt so high-

by allowing their energy to connect,

to the depth of becoming 'one'

Freedom, freedom, sweet freedom...

Where skin tingles under the droplets of sweat,

and endorphin's float through your system

Causing that outer beautiful surrender,

Riding that high, that floating sensation

No drugs, no alcohol, just collective love.....

So i'll dive into that collective way

and go deeper than words-

I'll allow it to encapsulate me

to love, to nurture, to enrich my life

in ways that can't be spoken or heard.

Death of old Views, Re-birth, Timelessness and Helping Others

I run through the mountains and streams

and I perish again and again in my dreams

Over and over 'til time is an illusion

Releasing the pain and panic it brings

Until there is nothingness; no name, no titles,

No clinging to yesterday, to people, to desires

Just the unchanging truth and inner knowing

Like hearing the distant and faint callings

of the voices of the lives lived before

With the vortex swirling in their eyes

Drawing me me into their previous lives

Peering to the depth of their souls

The past brought forward to this time

Bringing the ancient unrecorded way

to this sensual living in modern life

This swirling energy within and without,

Seeks to merge with other's energy about

Making the connections we all yearn for.

And so now i'll delve a little deeper

for those who need to know.

To make their path that little sweeter

I'll float through the oceans, cliffs, mountains

and streams, deep into the dark caves

Hoping to help the spiritual seeker

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Deeper Teachings: Echoes of the Heart

As I glide into the earth her dried arteries take me deeper, deeper...

Deeper....til darkness is within....within and without

til all moves into One, joined, united, tied

Delving to a depth never before gone....

And the singing escapes from parting lips,

as the rhythmic movements begin to sway to the melodic song

smoothly, effortlessly, oh I love how this tastes

for there is a sweetness in the air, a lightness underfoot

a swirling in my heart as it echoes into the earth

Freedom of the mind, release negativity

let go and increase energy......

Freedom of the mind, release negativity

let go and increase energy.....

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Here With You and For You...

Warm skin, I invite you in

Arms holding, confidently inspiring

Strong and steady...

Strong and steady...

Sink beneath the layers

Settle in the swirling warmth-

Unconditional and fearless.

Rising up....

Waking up...

Heavy darkness a distant memory

Ignorance is no longer an option

I am here with you and for you

Artwork by Atmara Rebecca Cloe

Discovering Self

I can say no more

For to believe is to live

And to live is to know

And to know banishes suffering

Man-kind are riddled with

Painting by Kevin Candill

Faith

Taken to the very edge

Shaken deeply within

A group of beautiful souls

Joined together, crystallized by common thoughts,

Harmonized feelings, and awakening ...

Reality rising, deepening to a knowing

Though not set in stone

Developments continuing,

Relinquishing control

Have faith......

And let go....

Ancient Snake Teachings: Passion, Fire and the Unknown

Shed this old skin-

Shed the old and let the new in;-

Flexible, strong and sensitive

Rise... rise..... rise........

Oh how I welcome with open arms 

the fire burning bright-

and never ever wistful for this passion to calm

Never reluctant to feel, vibrate....

This.... this beautiful rawness, this deep understanding

without needing to say a word.

And when the flames shrink to its base

Only then do the coals lay, hot and constant

Hot and constant.... hot and constant....

Breath ignites my flame inside-

Oh what delight, what bliss, what passion.....

Only then can I surrender to feel all......

Pain, love, the 'good and the bad'...

Everything....

All.........

I hunger for the unknown, drive me into your darkness

Into the core of your mysteries

Take me.... Take me....

Take me to the unknown and back,

For I yearn to feel more

Teach me how sweet life can be, teach me more wonders....

For I am forever your student....

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Stay Awake with Me

Stay awake with me.....

Keep your eyes open

Feeling, seeing, tasting, hearing

More...More...More...

Your candle may flicker

In the darkness of night...

Just feel your heart beat,

Center yourself and

Hold on tight.

Stay awake with me.....

Breathe...

Dive to your depths

Swirling, tingling, ears ringing

Feel..Feel..Feel....

Feel your own power

Steady from within

Embrace this energy

Have no fear

Let your heart sing

Stay awake with me

Just stay awake with me

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Sacred Ancient Language

Stars gently whisper their sacred ancient wisdom

Subtle in the deep, and dark night sky, 

Their sacred ancient wisdom heard louder,

Brought closer in the stillness and depths of night: 

Listen...listen to the beautiful language

So vast worlds merge and collide,

And as the stars whisper delicately 

Consciousness begins to arise,

It melds, it collides, it collects-

Weaving its web through our souls

Lessons of as above so below

deeply resonate and gently echo

So look up at the stars in the dark sky

and feel the deep connection within.

Know that others are doing the same-

Merging, combining, collectively resigning

To the art of learning to live......

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

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Whispers of Shakti

Energy intertwined, vortex swirling

to depths never before known

Darkness, earth, encapsulating

Enriching and enthralling

Deeper and deeper

Swirling and swirling

Glowing, growing, seeking

Fingers deep, probing

Ancient melodies floating

High on rhythmic breath

Ancient and beautiful 

Ancient and beautiful

Tantalizing and energizing

Spilling, surging, giving...

take it...this excess...

bathe in this energy

set yourself free

revel and taste

surrender and feel

higher and higher

Lighter and lighter

Breathe...

Breathe...

Breathe...

Deliciously sweet

Merging energies

Electric currents

Drift in the air

Touching, spinning inside

the wheels unseen

to the naked eye

Floating, feeling, freeing

Warming, heating, burning
Flowing upwards
Beyond the head
Into the universe
Lovingly surrendered,
Oh gentle, sweet freedom...
In this divine feminine

Painting by Mathew Brass

Night Runs- Stepping Closer

Stars bright in the dark sky

Not another person around

Freedom is in every step

echoing deeply, so deeply within.

Rhythm and energy move in unison

Feeling my blood pump

and my heart slightly raised

Oh, it is good to feel so alive!

And the owls sit quizzically

as they watch me pass by-

The bats fly from the fruit trees

surprised to feel me near.

The leaves on the trees

move slightly as I pass....

There is just so much life around

Feeling this energy,  I soar

Higher, and higher- what a buzz!

So sweet, so beautiful,

This is such a simple blessing...

The stars remind me how small we are

and just how large the universe is

I remember what I am grateful for

As I step slowly toward my life's purpose

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Wild and Free

We belong with the wilderness

We belong with the grass

We belong with the deep dark caves
to the waterfalls' rush
Feel like the animals
Move and be at one

Soar above with the eagles,

delve down to the sea...
Be wild and free
be wild and free
be wild and free

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Feeling is Living

Surrender to beauty 

Embrace the weaving of life-

a sweetness so intricate and delicate and bright 

Be thankful to feel-In love and in pain.

Feeling is living.

So live. Be free. Be wild

For love cannot be tamed

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Interconnections

We are all connected

as connected as

the sun is to the earth

as the moon is to the ocean

and as air is to fire....

we thrive on this interconnection-

this beautiful dance of yin and yang

set deeply in your sweet surrender....

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Connection

Connection.

Unseen to the naked eye,

untouched by the most supple of skin

not thought of, not willed, but simply felt.

This sensuality becomes a trigger

and that trigger becomes a new 'reality'

So beautiful, so sweet. A fresh reality...

where light becomes brighter,

Love becomes deeper,

Pain becomes a melodious song

echoing to the core

existing only as an invitation to explore

to a depth never experienced before....

deeper and deeper- beyond all comfort

Travel to a place within

a place of virgin land, 

where you've never dared

to enter before. Loiter to feel your fears.....

feel them grip you and strangle your courage

breathless and feeling every terrifying emotion:

Grief, pain, jealousy, doubt.... 

leads to the openness of unconditional love-

Openness....weightlessness....

sweet surrendered release.... 

Connections made through spiritual chords

Are bonding, loving, purifying, healing.

On The Path love touches 

and vibrates with intensity unsurpassed

I thank the beautiful souls

who keep enriching my experience

helping the courage to flow

helping in the process to re-member

In this life....

In this body.

At this time.

Image from Ashtar Command Community

Releasing Control

The sun is never brighter then on a cold, windy day

A fire is ever more radiant in the still darkness of night

The rain is never more nourishing then in the clutches of drought

Nor is the burning of the sun in the middle of a flood....

This reminds me things can balance out in time 

There are lessons we can take from nature itself

In the beautiful ability to just release and be free

for we can't control the weather

sometimes we are better

to shrug our shoulders and simply say

'what will be will be'.

Image by +Tony Heyward 

(www.tonyheywardimages.com)