Purging

I can see tears when by chance we meet

You're on the verge of crying

I can feel the desperation clinging

it makes me just feel like crying...

Fear of letting go of your daughter dying

Is something so foreign to me.....

Grief is so thick, I can't seem to see

My walls are steadying me

 Polite conversation eludes me

And it moves me more than words

to see you suffer...

And it moves me more than words

that I make it worse...

Why do you do this to yourself?

I'd understand if you shunned me

The pain of missing your child

Now that I have grown-

the way your daughter

never will.....

And it rocks me to feel your grief

to see your eyes well with tears

I can feel this desperation clinging to me more

so much so that I cannot breathe.....

Please don't talk to me, please let me go

I can't handle you staring so...

Desperation clings to me of a life lost long ago

It won't bring her back to speak with me

I wish I could to stop your pain.

Please, set yourself free.....

For this desperation of clinging to me

is causing deep anxiety.

Walls are built to prevent friendships

Invisible I hide.

I can't feel this way again

desperately you cling to every passing moment-

the time I spent with your daughter sends echoes

of laughter through the air

expecting her to be there

even after all these years.....

Let it go, dear Mother, let it go

I release myself from your invisible grasp

and move away from your clinging....

Help yourself, you will not forget her

Stop blaming yourself for her death.

If you could have prevented it

You would have exchanged your life instead.

I know this...........

For years I felt guilty for living

this beautiful life.

But now I know its about letting go

So now I've moved on with my life.

I still remember her brightest smile and her

devilish loud laugh

But I owe it to life itself to live it

As even you as her Mother does.

Deeper Than Words

Swirling passion collides in this fury of fire

Rhythm moves and bends and flows

Energy vibrates within the body and 

Radiates its invisible waves across

Where the music keeps playing

Where inhibitions are discarded 

Where energies mingle- 

Where there are no thoughts, 

No judgments, no insecurities,

No expectations....

And speaking mere words seems so empty,

a ridiculous way to communicate,

For more is occurring on different levels

on the energy that we radiate

Where songs of devotion echo into the night,

Resonating into the sky, 

Sharing love with beautiful souls

I have never felt so high-

by allowing their energy to connect,

to the depth of becoming 'one'

Freedom, freedom, sweet freedom...

Where skin tingles under the droplets of sweat,

and endorphin's float through your system

Causing that outer beautiful surrender,

Riding that high, that floating sensation

No drugs, no alcohol, just collective love.....

So i'll dive into that collective way

and go deeper than words-

I'll allow it to encapsulate me

to love, to nurture, to enrich my life

in ways that can't be spoken or heard.

Death of old Views, Re-birth, Timelessness and Helping Others

I run through the mountains and streams

and I perish again and again in my dreams

Over and over 'til time is an illusion

Releasing the pain and panic it brings

Until there is nothingness; no name, no titles,

No clinging to yesterday, to people, to desires

Just the unchanging truth and inner knowing

Like hearing the distant and faint callings

of the voices of the lives lived before

With the vortex swirling in their eyes

Drawing me me into their previous lives

Peering to the depth of their souls

The past brought forward to this time

Bringing the ancient unrecorded way

to this sensual living in modern life

This swirling energy within and without,

Seeks to merge with other's energy about

Making the connections we all yearn for.

And so now i'll delve a little deeper

for those who need to know.

To make their path that little sweeter

I'll float through the oceans, cliffs, mountains

and streams, deep into the dark caves

Hoping to help the spiritual seeker

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Deeper Teachings: Echoes of the Heart

As I glide into the earth her dried arteries take me deeper, deeper...

Deeper....til darkness is within....within and without

til all moves into One, joined, united, tied

Delving to a depth never before gone....

And the singing escapes from parting lips,

as the rhythmic movements begin to sway to the melodic song

smoothly, effortlessly, oh I love how this tastes

for there is a sweetness in the air, a lightness underfoot

a swirling in my heart as it echoes into the earth

Freedom of the mind, release negativity

let go and increase energy......

Freedom of the mind, release negativity

let go and increase energy.....

Photo by +Tony Heyward 

Here With You and For You...

Warm skin, I invite you in

Arms holding, confidently inspiring

Strong and steady...

Strong and steady...

Sink beneath the layers

Settle in the swirling warmth-

Unconditional and fearless.

Rising up....

Waking up...

Heavy darkness a distant memory

Ignorance is no longer an option

I am here with you and for you

Artwork by Atmara Rebecca Cloe

Discovering Self

I can say no more

For to believe is to live

And to live is to know

And to know banishes suffering

Man-kind are riddled with

Painting by Kevin Candill

Faith

Taken to the very edge

Shaken deeply within

A group of beautiful souls

Joined together, crystallized by common thoughts,

Harmonized feelings, and awakening ...

Reality rising, deepening to a knowing

Though not set in stone

Developments continuing,

Relinquishing control

Have faith......

And let go....